If/Then - Here I Go

I'm not one for fortunes
Or wishing on a star
And I've studied all the stories
And what our chances are
Then my heart starts beating faster
And it makes this disaster worse by far
Still here I go

Now I know all the motions
And the steps to every dance
And I count cards at the table
I never bet on chance
I leave nothing to the gods
I know all the odds and even so
Still here I go
Oh here I go
Why, I don't know
Oh here I go

You're not some romantic
You know, that's no surprise
You're no good at small talk
Or little loving lies

I'm awkward and ungrateful
And sometimes I'm hateful, as you know
Still here we go
Oh, here we go

You know deep down, I'm a coward
Afraid to let you in
But the only thing more frightening
Is to say "what might have been?"
So here I go
Oh, here I go
I love you so
So here I go